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De Profundis is a series of poems exploring the author’s progression in Fahr’s Disease in both literal and figurative effects. The series of one-hundred-four poems represent the intense mental challenges of coming to terms with this disease. The book focuses on raw emotions and the effects of denial, anger, bargaining, despair, and acceptance of this incurable and inoperable disorder. The series of poems employs strong imagery, reflections from childhood, references to nature, and unique imagery to present the author’s internal dialogue of despair and reconciliation

The author suffers from Fahr’s Disease, Primary Familial Brain Calcification: a syndrome that is caused by calcium deposits on the basal ganglia or cerebral cortex. Its physical manifestations consist of features like Parkinson’s: muscle tremors, muscle stiffness, diminished voice, dis-coordination of fine muscle movements, dementia, diminished memory, and other muscular, physiological, and psychological symptoms. 

     2.

I wear

my denial

like a worn

flannel suit:

creased

in forgetfulness

moth-eaten

in memories.

     23.

The

muezzin calls

from the minaret,

a rabbi

chants the Torah,

a priest

counts rosaries

mumbling inflected

Latin

While

Luther nails

95 theses

to

a splintered door,

but

I

can not

find God

in these forms

because

of

what

I am:

Am I

sin

or

sinner?

     55.

The

mockingbird trills

a stolen melody

that echoes

from earth to heaven

believing

that

the blind fates

will not mistake her

for

the thieving crow

or

melancholy nightingale.